Joshua Palmer

Just recently my life has been thrown into the middle of a threshold, I stand facing decisions and choices from what seems to be the next page of my life. The fear, the excitement is overwhelming. I fall facedown in prayer seeking and asking questions to God like "Are you sure?" "Really?" "Is this it?" only to find myself yet again alone with my Creator praying and seeking for the final answer. My stomach turns just thinking about the opportunity. The risk, the challenge is great! Everything I've known, everything I'm comfortable with, my routine, the plans, my LIFE, all of it is about to be challenged.

If this is His will, then so be it. Though maybe people won't understand, I must be obedient as I don't understand myself. The very thing I was against, the very purpose I was not equipped for is about to meet me at the door! Time is sensitive right now and my faith has already been challenged. How great is this? That the very thing I have been praying for has already begun.

It reminds me of the time I was in Spain and we went to a dam where it was turned into a local swimming park. Cliff's of all sizes waiting to be jumped from only to land in the cool waters of this beautiful lake. It was easy for me to jump from the small rocks and medium cliffs that were there, it was fun. However the real challenge was a cliff that was known for it's height and steepness, from far away it didn't look as bad, but as I climbed and walked to the edge of this deaf defying cliff, I became aware that this truly was a high jump. You can say that I should of never looked down, my stomach turning, my anxiety rising, I didn't know what to do, I froze. It took me 15 minutes, which felt like eternity to finally come to the realization that I, Joshua Palmer, wanted this! I took the effort to climb to the top just to experience the jump, I said to my self you only live once, when will I ever get a chance to jump off of this well known cliff all the way from Spain?...so I backed up, sprinted towards the edge, closed my eyes and JUMPED! When I came to the surface for air, I heard cheering and yelling from the top, I did it! I jumped! What an amazing feeling that felt, the fear, the anxiety, the worry, GONE! All that was left was excitement, laughter, joy, accomplishment! I left that place with a smile on my face, knowing I overcame my fear of jumping and taking a risk.

I've spiritually climbed, observed, prayed, I see what seems possible and what could be the impossible, out of the ordinary, I've already said "you only live once", I've waited for this moment and Today, Today I face that place right before the jump, I'm scared, my anxiety is rising, yet I'm position as though I'm about to run, I wait for the Lord to speak, my heart is beating faster, tears of sweat drips from my forehead, my breathing becomes harder, the excitement builds as my ears incline for the answer that will propel me to take the risk and JUMP...